So I look this up term up on the internet and pow… this article pops up. I read the first paragraph and OMG…
“Burnout is one of those road hazards in life that high-achievers really should be keeping a close eye out for, but sadly—often because of their "I can do everything" personalities—they rarely see it coming. Because high-achievers are often so passionate about what they do, they tend to ignore the fact that they're working exceptionally long hours, taking on exceedingly heavy workloads, and putting enormous pressure on themselves to excel—all of which make them ripe for burnout.”
Frickin’ A… this article continues.
“What is burnout?
Burnout is a state of chronic stress that leads to:
- physical and emotional exhaustion
- cynicism and detachment
- feelings of ineffectiveness and lack of accomplishment...”
Check, Check and CHECK – Holy Crap… this was me. Maybe I should read on? Nope… SWIM AWAY!
I’m Mostly, Back
I started feeling better about life, about a month ago. It started with some small wins and has snowballed from there. I would not say I am all the way back, but I am close. A few more pieces fall into place and I’ll be there. Looking back, it was a rough stretch – for sure, but the future once again, seems bright. There are many stories to tell and I certainly will. I want to thank my kid – Hunter. He certainly was an enormous pain in the ass during this time, but he had good intentions. He just wanted the best for me and did not know how to articulate that. Quite frankly, I did not know what was wrong. Looking back, I did not think there was anything wrong, but surely… there was.
"Livin’ the Dream"
I have a friend of mine and every time I said that to him, his re-tort is: “I’m chasin’ the dream”. There was a time I believed all of it, but no longer… those two statements are so different. It took me awhile to understand them. Now I do, and I am making some modifications to my life. I have a list of things that are important to me and am going to set-off and do those things. Sure, there is some #craftaudio in there. However, that alone will not define me anymore. One of those things I did was to move my wood shop to my property, I call it the “Craft Audio – Hang Out” and posted on FB yesterday, about it. More will come of this, but it makes me happy... Really happy.
Speaking of happy… part of the modifications will be (I hope) to make others… happy.
*Me and the Dog... Makin' Speakers at the CAHO
While writing this I was reminded of a story I once read (or more likely heard on MTV - Martha Quinn?) about David Bowie having a nervous break-down and “grocery shopping” himself back to health. Not that I had a nervous break-down (at least I don’t think I did) during this time but felt it appropriate to write this while a little “Let’s Dance” and a host of other Bowie songs playing off our new Boom speaker. So, I raise a glass to you Mr. Bowie… RIP... you crafted some awesome tunes! For me, I hope this was as close as I get to a nervous breakdown.
Yes Hazel – There will be a Woofer
It’s on the list along with a plethora of other things and I promise, next time.... I won’t be gone so long. My little China Girl....